spent my yesterday at Ryan's house.
today sucks.
there's tuition tonight and nobody wanted to go Vivocity with me earlier, or not i would have cancelled my tuition.
damn.
mixed feelings now.
you see, i was rather elated, cause i finally talked things out with Ryan after keeping it bottled inside me for so long. it feels great to thrash things out with him and settle everything in a lovely manner. and we're still going strong(:
and then, my mood got kinda bad after viewing certain blogs.
you see, i dont want this matter to blow up.
i already told you i wont be free on wed/fri.
i already told you i've got to celebrate my dance stuff on wednesday.
i already told you i've got a streaming talk to attend on friday.
i already dropped you a testimonial on friendster telling you to meet up. [perhaps you didnt notice?]
you already said that you can understand that i spend more time with him than you.
and its only been a week since we havent meet? why the big deal? as in, no offense, but we dont meet every single week even before i was with Ryan, do we?
okay, lets say yes, i did not spend as much time as i used to with you after Ryan and me got together, but if you were unhappy with it, you could have just tell me nicely instead of writing such hurtful remarks isnt it?
"to think you labelled me as your good friend"whats this supposed to mean?
okay, so now tell me, how would you feel if i was the one writing those comments instead?
and define "took for granted" please, cos i did ask you out in friendster.
im not pissed. im confused, at what were you thinking when you wrote all these in your blog.
and perhaps, at the same time, disappointed. that you would think such of me.
whatever it is, contact me alright.
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okay, so apart from that, my day today was useful.
in a sense that i studied for practically the whole day.
i woke up at 10am and foolishly waited for my chinese tutor to come only at 11am-.-
damn, wasted half an hour of sleep!
yea, had chinese tuition that sucked kinda bad, then immediately after it ended, took a bath, changed, packed my bag and cabbed down to hougang mall's macs for group study with jiale, freddy, malcolm and dwayne, and later on, garey.
studied from 3pm until 10pm.
yea, 7 hours, minus 1hour of talking/eating/etc, 6hours of history+abit of math and +abit of science.
kinda crazy cos after i reach home and bathe, i started doing my history once again.
yea, im prepared to ton tonight, me and jiale gotta do the sickening history presentation. plus i wanna carry on studying. i dont have alot of time.
i need/want/have/wish/pray/____[insert word here] that i get in streams like 3A1 and 3A4. [double science]
i cant let my history and geog down ok!
yea, so as you can tell, im really busy now.
any dates whatsoever, wait till after exams, around mid-may alright (:
meanwhile, im gonna study like siao.
i can swear that i have never studied this hard before, in my entire life. [okay, i know thats bad.]
and Ryan Yeoh, if you do read this, I WANT YOU TO START STUDYING ALSO OKOKOK!!! *screams*
;D
okay, gotta attend to my PW presentation for tmr alr.
cris jasmine and weirou, you 3 idiots!!! *pulls hair*
[haha, jkjk]
okay, its close to 3am and baby just fell asleep i guess.
*gives a goodnight kiss on his forehead =x heh!* so, till then, goodnight and have a nice day.
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2:39 AM
went marina with mom and sis after a test at thomson plaza.
yea, thats my day.
i cant wait to cut my hair. most probably monday.
and i'll dye blue black, i hate brown hair.
and i'll dye the ends red. i hope. ;D
oh my way home after shopping, i saw couples around the fountain of wealth at suntec.
got reminded of Ryan(:
heh, and i still remember that night at vivocity when baby slept on my lap <3
goodbye.
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8:50 PM
i am gonna make something super duper, i-have-never-made-for-anyone-before thing for baby for our first month, i promise its gonna make him feel suparrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr loved ;Dplease god, give me more time!
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11:14 PM
hate it when mom disagrees with me.
told her about s.ho banning me from class when its HER fault, AND HOLY SCREWED SHIT, MOM SAY IS I RUDE?!
excuse me, if she didnt cross the line first, i wouldnt have screamed at her either ok! THINK YOUR VOICE LOUD VERY BIG SHOT ISIT!-.-
darn.
thursday had history remedial.
how can i miss history stuff right ;D
then after that went hougang mall's macs with jiale and studied fom 5pm to 10pm.
yes, im so proud of it.
halfway called baby up.
you better be ok alright ):
and why on 2nd may! damnit! )':studied from 11pm again.
friday.
was supposed to have lit remedial.
but tell me, what kind of remedial is it when you have to stand outside of the class for the whole entire lesson?!
so yea, me, chris and fred left while the entire class continue having remedial.
spent some time with baby at ground floor while waiting for the others to end remedial.
then 8 of us, w/o jas and weirou, went hougang mall pepperlunch and feasted ;D
its been so, so very long that we went out as a group la!
after that went to chris's hse, drank abit and took a very short nap then headed back to school.
had streaming talk.
and i wanna go 3A1 and 3A4!
i absolutely love geog and hist ;D
called baby, had a short chat and yea im home.
im going to study again.
i have a test tmr at some english centre.
*pray its gonna be easy*
boring days.
i wanna study ):
ahaha.
bye.
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9:15 PM
im home on a lovely evening today.
so first, before i talk bout my typical tuesday and wednesday, let me tell you something.
WE'VE GOT GOLD, WITH HONOURS.read that big and clear! CHINESE DANCE GOT GOLD WITH HONOURS!
xmcd got ourselves not silver, not gold, but
Gold, with Honours.
its the best thing that can happen to us i tell you.
thinking bout it gives me a great sense of satisfaction.
i remember how much i dread going to dance practices. and constantly complaining bout all the aches that i had after practice. lazy bunch of potatoes slacking in the dance room. we did not take it seriously and there's this point of time, when gold, with honours sounds more like a dream to me.
soon, as the SYF date draws near, all of us started becoming serious, we were lectured bout our attitude, our attitude sucked. then one by one, clique by clique, instead of chatting away, we practiced our dance steps when it wasnt our turn. and like what i once said. the turning point was when we saw our own rehearsal video at NUS. i couldnt believe we danced so, so, awfully. it was such an eyesore.
but whatever it is, when mdm liew announced the results to us at the parade square today, the feeling was simply amazing, tears were uncontrollable. tears of joy, every single one of us. its like, finally, after practising so much, so hard and so long.... we made it. we hugged, we cried, we screamed. it was one of the best moments in my life. like finally achieving something
i wanted so badly.
yes, and once again, you girls are amazing :D
AND IM PROUD TO SAY, I LOVE XINMIN CHINESE DANCE!
and of course, WE ROCK THE STAGE!
and readers from xms, dont worry, you can catch us performing for you people one day, real soon! :D
and i cried again when i read Ruimin's blog.
and i can continue crying over and over again, this is so fairytale-came-true!
girls, always remember, WE ARE, THE BEST.
i feel like dancing ;DDDDDDDD
"its just...so magical
and i've never felt like this before
i want to remember this feeling forever.
this moment where everything just seem so right
i looked into everyone's face
and i saw how much we have grown.
how much we have mature as a team
and how much we have bonded and learnt to work as one.
i was overwhelmed.
and it really touched my heart.
thank you so so much.
we got together
cheered our hearts out together
and shared our joy together.
nothing beats that."
-Ruimin.
NOTHING BEATS THAT.
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now lets get back to earth.
so tuesday!
popped 8 panadols thanks to horrible cramps.
darn.
after school stayed back with the girls and did abit of project work.
then cabbed to compass and got abit of food [IT IS ABIT OKOKOK! ;D]
cabbed to Ryan's house. shared our strawberry sweetheart. but it was abit too creamy, but i still am addicted to it ;D
left his house at 8plus.
wednesday!
screwed up my chem test.
darn, failed all my bio, chem, physics for this year. dammit.
after school went compass and studied with jasmine.
could have gone meet Ryan loh ): idiot nvr tell me he's not going out.
okay im done.
there's history remedial tmr and lit remedial on friday.
im looking forward to friday's pepperlunch with the 10ofus! its been sooooooooo long since we've went out tgh, as one ;D
okay goodbye.
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6:09 PM
so im blogging in school now :D
me and Ryan is okay already,
YAYees!
and you, shoo!he's mine. =xheh, might be going Ryan's hse later and share my strawberry sweetheart cake full of sweetness with him :D
anw, had a very heated argument with s.ho earlier, slam the door and walked out.
jiale said she was speechless and almost cried =/
screw her, who ask her call me names!
and i should stop losing my cool, rochelle is not a fierce girl ok ;D
alright im done, many thank god that music cher not here today(:
okay im done.
and i love baby!thanks for everything love! :D
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12:38 PM
